Rae's Lyrical Perspective

Thursday, June 23, 2011

5:51 PM

Blessed with the opportunity to bear a seed
I could have re-plowed the ground and took advantage of another season
but I chose to reap this harvest instead

baby be born now
and he be good and fat and breast fed
like any other mammal clinging to his mother's breast
ears rested on my chest
my heart beats new ideas into his head

ones that'll prepare him for this brand new world
that seems like hundred of birth canals and contractions away from the amniotic sac he once called his lovely abode
that was 2 weeks ago and he ain't homesick anymore

when he gets older and his peers remark that his mother is a MILF
he won't entertain such banter
because he'll know the difference
the revolutionary blood that coats his veins got him destined for greatness
the product of mating with someone you can build with like pyramids withhold scams

I'd rather be one letter short of a MILF
Mother Lover Fighter some things that I am...and I am sure of
They can keep the "I" because I bear no ill fruit

My son be the ultimate ego boost
got me tooting my horn, ringing bells and blowing whistles
snapping my fingers because I know I'm legit

The truth is in the womb
like if each cell that composes the muscle tissue were an oracle
whispering odes of grandeur into existence through all 4 hours of labor
and then he was birthed

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

6:51 AM

I will not let you define me for me

big thighs, wide eyes, kinky hair, southern drawl
you love it
but because all of those have been deemed taboo
you'd rather try to hit it and quit it, rather than embrace my Queendom

You can't make me feel like TLC's Unpretty
and just because I know myself, for myself doesn't make me siditty or a BITCH

In college, I was told that I act like an AKA but I look like a Delta or a Zeta and I was like, "What is that supposed to mean?"
Then I realized that Greek organizations foster for European values
and it's quite obvious from the titles of their sects to the way they conduct business
that's Why I'm Me Phi Me, because I'm Black, and don't care to be Greek

I'm sick of sistas soul searching for their natural highs in the arms of white approval
I dated a white guy before & he loved my hair, my hips, my lips, my tongue
on the contrary his mother hated me...and to distinguish whether it was out of ignorance or envy is not my prerogative
but by being myself, for myself I was able to garner the attention of people that I never even sought the approval of

First class citizenship is not a myth or some unfathomed social ranking
it lies within the universe's energy, waiting on you to grasp it and claim it for your own
I do not aspire to be a model or an actress or a video vixen.
I'm content with being a student, nurturer, entrepreneur, philanthropist, and by all means I'm content with the color of my flesh
I am all hues of amber, marmalade, espresso, rich unsweetened coffee without the cream
I am cherry, mahogany, caramel and onyx
I Am Grade A Blackness.

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

8:22 AM

I once live in a fallacy filled world of job security
but there is no security when you’re Black
and national security is said to have been at stake because of it for the past 5 decades
thus we began to embrace our own and became Black Nationalists

I’ve stopped crying over spilled milk
but have remained Unapologetically Black
by first finding first class citizenship in myself
I learned not to seek the approval of others

for they will only pay me their gratitudes in chitterlings and fried bologna sandwiches
because to them I’ll always be “mammie” or “Florence” or Kathryn Stocket’s main character in “The Help”
see I’m tired of the lack of reciprocation…
me helping you, and you helping yourselves.

Human Resources is a joke because they don’t protect us from the backlash and mistreatment of
rainbow collared jobs in these great states of America
and Great? How would one define that?
If the Grand Ol’ Party is to personify greatness then I’d rather be, less than…
I’ll forever be that anyway in their eyes.
their agenda doesn’t support the enterprise of my people, Black folks, and women
nor the teachers, immigrants or homosexuals

but if you’re a fetus, especially an Aryan one, they’ll fight to the death
but if you’re a nigger baby, you’re truly worthy of abortion
because then you won’t have to wade through the platitudes of working
and living and learning, and so on in an unjustly fashion, just as I have

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

9:06 PM

I know racism for myself
It don’t hide in the bushes or slither across the ground
It’s loud and belligerent and haughty

I know racism for myself
I didn’t have to read about it in a book
visit Civil Rights museums
or Google it,
But I did all of those things anyway

I know racism for myself
It’s not blunt
but rather piercing
and with lots of malice

racism throws change on the counter when you've held your hand out to receive its tender
it refuses to say "Hello" when you speak to it
and it also missed work and school the following day after Barack Obama was elected as the president of the United States of America

I know racism for myself
I loved its offspring
worked for it
supported it unknowingly
but when it made me see red
I then knew all too better

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.

9:02 PM

Why does my boss act as if he’s doing me a favor when he instructs me to clock out fifteen to thirty minutes earlier than scheduled?

Maybe it’s that dogmatic capitalistic aura that’s got a mean ol grip on him

or rather he’s just sick of seeing my face

but whatever the reason my bills don’t pay themselves

and cutting my seconds, minutes, and hours got me nickel and dimin'

and scraping the bottom of the barrel

AND this is why I refuse to be a minimum wage earning, commission dependent retail sales associate for the rest of my life

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

4:34 PM

I have resisted for far too long
denying myself of this belated blissful security
they say ignorance is bliss
and well if that is so
then why do I only feel ashamed while graduating to hindsight?

I am now in fellowship with the truth
and though I may not know everything
I am most certain of what I DO know
like:
my savior's name is Yeshua
NOT Jesus
black folks don't bear Greek offspring
and anything offered to me by a descendant of a cave man
will be dissolved

because since truth and me
now be in communion
all knowledge is resolute
and any proposals to dilute it, I decline
let's just agree to disagree on it's insoluble properties
and I don't need church to get right
because my cognizance of the truth
keep me and God closer than the overlapping fibers
in any article

woven...
into my being is a sense of identity
and even if you killed me you couldn't snatch it
in my prior uplifting of being piss po, street articulate and ratchet
my heart still remained humble... mind steady

your monotheistic views
are not the same as mine
see Abba Father has many parts
my soul is down with being washed in the plethora
of God, Allah, Buddha, and even the black man

I am an Earth
molded with imperfections
yet seemingly Mother Nature's perfected rays of sunshine beget me
my growth she is rewarding
because I don't run and tuck my tail
I know the truth ya'll & I'm gone tell it

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

9:17 AM

this country's backwards
like egg lay hen
like blue grass and green skies
like water to quench hunger
and food to nourish dehydration
we can't feed the poor
but we can fund a war
like fucking for virginity
and one proceeds infinity
I know lazy folks living it up off government aid
and some don't qualify but they're getting laid.. OFF
like run before walk
I'm disgusted!
broke and busted like the rest of middle class America
they don't call us the working poor for nothing
like slavery before kingdom
we pay right when the cut off notice comes in the mail
because that's all we can afford
like the filthy rich should starve for one day
meanwhile vagrants and beggars are feasting in their places
annually property values rise in this land of the free
but shit ain't free because...
to live in a new subdivisions costs ten grand
and they're all comprised of cookie cutter, zero-lot, cribs
literally the size of a crib
only big enough for you to roller over in
like insect trapping spider in a web
and when the white folks leave we follow them
what happened to Harlem?
like slave whipping master
what happened to making "them" leave and then not following?
or Black Wall Street?
you mean to tell me that we couldn't rebuild it?
like reconstruction before destruction
we built pyramids, plantations, this nation,
hell, we built the whole damned world

this country's backwards
like still sitting in the back
even after we've won our right to come forward
and everybody wanna be a nigga but nobody wannabe a nigga
we fight amongst ourselves
sell arms to countries
just so that we can wage war on them
like a militia not using gorilla warfare
we're wide open
we'll arrest a hungry thief
before a crooked politician
this shit is backwards
like Satan in heaven and God in hell
like my president is black
but he belongs to the Illuminati
c'mon son!
this shit is backwards

TO BE CONTINUED...

♥Assta Rafiya Pandu.